Stuff...

• There is some animal making a really weird noise outside right now. Its driving me nuts.
• Soccer is in full swing now. I really do enjoy watching my kids play (when I actually get to watch them and not constantly look for and keep up with the others and their many little fights).
• One of the boys keeps asking if they can walk to the skate park. They (2 of them anyway) have before but the last time they got in a fight (you know the actual push and hitting kind). The answer is no. no. no.
• I know people think I am harsh with my boys but I cant stand to see kids running around misbehaving. I dont want my boys to be one of them.
• I am having a hard time getting my little one to eat anything but junk food. I dont mean just cookie and cokes and candy. I mean he wants hot dogs and chicken nuggets and fish sticks. He wont eat veggies hardly at all and most meat we have to make him eat. He tells me it disgusting. Thank you Honey. Once he starts eating though he likes it. Grrr...
• I am not ready for Easter this year. It seems weird that its already here.
• I havent talked to my Dad in a while. I have tried to call him the past few days but no answer. I wonder if he went out of town.
• My middle schooler had detention for not bringing his book to class. He says this is only the second time and it doesnt happen often but his idea of often and mine are not the same.
• I started walking this week. The little ones love it because they get to play at the park while I walk. The older ones not so much because I picked them up late yesterday. Opps.
• My hubby wants me to order him some boots "like the ones he had last year or was it the year before?" He has no clue where I ordered them from. Me either hun, me either.
• My mom got me a new camera for my Birthday. The boys said it was like theirs. Kinda but mine is a different brand and alot nicer, so really nothing like theirs. Hehe.
• That damn thing is still making noise.

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

• I just received some really beautiful flowers :)
• I have had all kinds of phone calls today.
• I love that.
• I get to talk to some family that I dont talk to one a daily (or weekly for that mater) basis.
• I told my littlest one today is my Birthday and he said no he wanted it to be his birthday.
• The hubby told me happy birthday yesterday. I told him it wasnt my birthday and he said "Today is the 23rd right?" Yes honey it was but thats still not my birthday.
• His response was well he told me then so if he forgets today it will be ok.
• Not so much.
• I am going to make my own cake. He is sweet enough that he would go buy me one but I like home made better unless its pie. I cant make pies. I suck at it. Either they burn or the filling gets under the crust.
• My older kids the ones that should remember my birthday since I have been saying for 2 weeks my birthday is this Wednesday, didnt remember this morning :( But thats ok I will remind them again when they get home :)
• I never know what I want for my birthday (or Christmas). It drives people crazy.
• Thats all...today is beautiful!

Its Over....sigh....

• Spring Break was fun. Busy but fun.
• Surprisingly everyone was in bed on time and got up easily this morning.
• We started Spring Break with a trip to see my SIL.
• Then the kids swear they had soccer practice on Monday.
• We rushed around Monday after noon trying to get new soccer cleats and get everything done before practice. There was no practice and I was pissed.
• Tuesday the kids got new shoes. All of them. It was stressful.
• Just taking all the kids into a store all at once by myself is a beating but then trying to find them each something they like that fits is almost impossible.
• Kolby was easy. He found a pair of shoes that came with a comic book. They had his size and he was done. I dont know if he even knew what the shoes looked like before we left the store.
• That caused all kinds of problems with the littlest one because he wanted ones with a comic book too.
• I tried a pair of shoes on him and he hated them and they hurt his feet until he saw the comic book in the box. I tried every other pair of shoes I could find that he might like and he wouldnt have any of it. We ended up getting the pair with the comic book that hurt his feet but they cant hurt to bad cause he wears them all the time (as in never takes the damn things off) and doesnt complain about them hurting.
• You would think the other would be easier because they are older and can pick them out and try them on with out my help. I just needed to check them once they were done, right? HUH. They were the worst ones.
• They couldnt find any they liked and when they did they couldnt find it in their size. The deal was I would pay $50 for them shoes, if they cost more than that they had to pay for the rest. They managed to find shoes for less. I knew they could do it :)
• I hunted shoes and hunted shoes only to find them and they not fit. He was looking for 2 sizes to big.
• The other one kept getting shoes that were to small. He stated with a 5 1/2 and ended up getting a 7. In his defense there wasnt much of a difference in the shoes.
• The other one did ok. He just picked the ugliest shoes in the store. But hey thats my kid for ya.
• The older kids went to spend Wednesday with their other parents.
• Thursday they came back or I picked them up on the way to Chuck E Cheese.
• I ended up trading kids around before I came home. I got one that was scared of the dark. I mean really really scared of the dark. It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be.
• Friday we spent the day at the park with my family. It was fun. When we got home the youngest ones wanted to know why the big kids got to go to the park down the road from us but I wouldnt take them.
• I wanted to yell "because I am worn the fuck out" I didnt I used the because I said so thing.
• I always hated that when I was a kid.
• Damn it I got up to pick up the kids and I forgot what I was rambling about.

Things I noticed on our road trip...

• My kids are pretty good.
• They can even be nice a sweet to each other when they want to.
• There is not much to see between here and Houston. :/ blah.
• The rest stop in Huntsville is one of the nicest I have seen and is always clean.
• It still creeps me out at night.
• No how clean the car is before we start its always a mess before we make it back home.
• Even with a trash bag the kids leave trash all over the car. We went the last half of the trip with no snacks or drinks because of it.
• The kids and hubby can read in the car. I cant. I get car sick.
• The little ones can entertain themselves every easily.
• Driving while watching one dance in the back seat and not get caught doing it is hard.
• I wonder where he got his moves? I hope not from me cause it took everything I had not to laugh. It was a mix of the 70's and 80's.
• When the hubby says he needs to use the bathroom we stop within 5 mins. When the kids tell us we ask them if they can wait. That doesnt sound so fair to me.
• Once we stop once for a bathroom break it seems we have to stop at least every hour for one. Drives me nuts.
• My hubby's idea of half and my idea of half are not the same.
• My car does not handle at 90 as well as 80.
• I need new brakes.
• When you get off 45 on a service road that you would think put you right back on, it doesnt.
• Some people are real asses when driving. I think my hubby is one of them. He also wants me to be when he is in the passenger seat.
• I was almost rear ended by the same guy more than once. One time I am almost certain he was less than 6 inches from me.
• I never knew there was so much traffic on 45. At all hours.

Some things drive me crazy....

• My son hurt his arm last weekend while he was with his mother.
• I wanted to take the insurance card up to the hospital but they were done before I got there and said oh no it will be ok. She will fax it from work on Monday.
• HUH. Yeah right. I knew that wasnt going to happen. I took the card up there today after I called to make sure it was there. I dont want a bunch of unpaid hospital bills.
• It looks bad on credit. Then again it would have been her credit. Still, I would much rather it show up a good credit on ours though.
• All the info on file was hers. Yes she is his mother and yes she has a right to be on it but all his primary info should be our home, our number, the hubbys name and info. That kinda stuff because if they need something they are going to have to call us. Or well they can call her and she call us and then call them back or have us do it.
• I am not saying she shouldnt be on there at all, just that she should have put his dad on there first. He lives with us and we are the ones that deal with all that stuff and we are the ones are going to be paying for it so we are the ones who need the bill.

Oh the joys of being a step parent.

Socks, Socks, and more Socks!

• They are every where and I cant seem to find one damned pair.
• The sock thing was just out of control in my house. I couldnt take it any more.
• I bought new socks for everyone in my house yesterday. OMG who knew that would be so expensive.
• We washed and folded all the socks. Anything that didnt have a match or had a hole went in the trash.
• We threw out about a half a bag of socks.
• After all that we still only matched about 10 pair of socks. 10! thats it. 10! (that doesnt include the ones everyone is already wearing.)
• 10 pair for 7 people, most of which are the hubbys. Well that means either my kids are not wearing matching socks most of the time or I am washing the same 2 pair of socks over and over all week.
• I am going with the second (but we all know it probably the first).
• I have no clue what to do with all the soccer, baseball, and football socks. I dont want to throw them out because we still use them all the time and I never know what color the boys will need the next year.
• I do however think that 12 pair of Texas Ranger blue socks are too damn many.
• All that being said. My sock problem no longer exist. Everyone has new socks. Most importantly though we dont have any extras :)

• I washed my sons phone last night :( It comes on with another ones battery but not with his.
• If its messed up he has to replace it cause I wont.
• My other son lost the camera he got for Christmas. It was a nice one. I am not happy.
• These are just 2 examples of why I dont like my kids to have expensive toys (electronics).
• My kid with the hurt arm really doesnt like me this week. I wont let him run and play and he cant play on the computer or video games. He is bored out of his mind.
• My opinion on this is if his arm is so hurt and sore that he cant participate in school and can practice his horn then its too hurt to do those things too.
• Man I am a mean momma. :( Poor kids.
• I have been avoiding something that I can no longer put off.
• Once it is over with I wont have near as much stress. Stress make me super crazy. By crazy I mean a total Bitch.
• And being a bitch all the time makes me tired.
• I loved diner tonight. It was kinda like a breakfast pie. It was croissant roll with eggs, sausage, and cheese. Yummy. Yummy. Yummy!
• I was playing a game online today and someone tried to have cybersex. This wouldnt have bothered me near as much but it was on Yahoo and my kids play games there sometimes.
• I always want to go through all their crap and then tell them I am some fat hairy guy but I blush just at the thought of describing some sexual act to a stranger much less actually type it out. I think it might kill me.

• This weekend was interesting.....I guess.
• Didnt do too much.
• We were supposed to eat brunch with my parents on Sunday.
• We didnt get to :(
• We got all the way there and got a call about our oldest child being hurt.
• He hurt his arm again. It ended up not being broke but he is in a brace for a week or two.
• Soccer starts today. I am excited and dreadful.
• Its raining again.........
• I am really upset about not getting to eat with my parents. :/
• I think I resent my husband. More so than I realize.
• I gave up alot to be with him and it seems like I keep giving up bits and pieces of myself.
• When I moved I gave up seeing my friends and family everyday. Then it became more and more. Now I dont even talk to my friends from before my husband. My hardly ever see my family now and most of them only live a hour away.
• I no longer work because I take care of our children. It would cost more for child care than I would make a week. He has been saying he doesnt want me to go back to work even when the youngest goes to school.
• My father now lives just a few hours away and we still dont see him but on holidays.
• My sister in law lives about 5-6 hours from us and we have seen her more in the past 4 months (when she moved there) than we have seen my dad in the past 2 years.
• Its not that I dont enjoy it I just think my life needs to be about me and what I want sometimes.
• All this added together makes me a very pissed off unhappy person.
• I love my husband and I dont want a divorce but I want myself back. All of those things were a part of what made me who I am.
• I also think this all distributes to my depression.
• Wow that was more than I intended to let out....

These things are going to be the death of me....

I LOVE them but damn they have soooo much fat.

Sigh....I have been busy..

• Ok so one of the little ones had tubes put in his ears yesterday.
• I got him up at 4am so he could have breakfast because after 4:30 he couldnt eat anything because they scheduled him for 12 o'clock surgery. grrr.
• He had 3 pieces of Cinnamon toast, 2 cookies, a yogurt, and a glass of chocolate milk. Can you say PIG.
• We are supposed to be there by 10:30 so we need to leave by 9:30 with no stops on the way.
• After I get the other boys off to school and give the little his last drinks until after surgery I start getting ready and get the hubby up...sorta.
• The hubby gets up 30 mins. before we leave and ask if he has time to shower. GRRRR.
• As we are getting ready to leave he wants to stop and get a drink to wake him up.
• We stop and he forgot his wallet so we have to go back and get it. Then stop again and he gets himself something to eat too. I have more than one problem with this. He didnt ask if anyone else wanted anything and he was eating in front of a 5 yr old that couldnt have anything to eat or drink.
• The big breakfast at 4 am worked cause the little one didnt ask for anything to eat or drink until after the surgery.
• The other little one that had to go too not so much. He was hungry before we even got to the hospital.
• Thank goodness for moms :) My mom took him to play and grab a bite to eat while we were waiting.
• The MIL came too but she had to leave early cause we still were not in yet the kids were going to need to be picked up from school. Thank goodness for MIL's. She was not happy about this though. She wanted to stay.
• Surgery scheduled for noon didnt happen till after 2. I was starving cause I didnt have breakfast cause I ran out of time :(
• Surgery was quick when it finally got started. He was only away from us for about 20 mins at the most.
• Poor thing. His ears hurt and his leg. I had no clue so I had to ask if they had done something to it. Turns out he got a shot there. Poor thing.
• I may have held back a few tears when he was crying cause his ears hurt.
• He had 2 pop cycles and we got to leave. We were only in recovery for maybe 30 mins.
• We finally got to eat on the way home:) His choice McDonald's, of course.
• He was so good all day :)
• Now we are just hoping that this fixes his hearing problems. They will test it again in a few weeks.

Blah Blah Blah...

• MIL's.. sometimes they are great, sometimes not so much. Well right now I am loving mine. She comes in handy being so close. You know for those times when damn it I have already started diner only to remember I forgot one thing. The kids can run and borrow it for me :) My MIL is really pretty good.
• One of the boys will be getting tubes put in his ears tomorrow. :) and :( We are hoping this will help his hearing. If not we will have to look into something else. I am kinda worried about that.
• He cant eat after 4:30 in the morning. He will be getting up early for breakfast otherwise I think the day will be unbearable for him...and me.
• I pulled over on the side of the road today to talk on the phone because it was the hospital for registration info. A really nice cop stopped to check on me and make sure I wasnt stuck. It was raining. After he walked off I wish I would have gotten his name. As much as I like to complain about when people mess up I really like to complement them to their bosses when they do well :)
• We had some great dentist appointments. Some were last week and some today. Apart from that scheduling mix up (the one where they scheduled us for after the office closed) they really are a great dentist office.
• Only one cavity :( It will be fixed later this month. That was the earliest they could get him in. The rest were all good and the littlest ones brush their teeth the best. Hard to believe. They brush so well the dentist asked if I was still brushing their teeth.
• Sigh. My oldest just came in and said I forgot his math meet this weekend. I didnt forget because I didnt know. He told me they would be having 3 more and he would get a paper telling me about them. Well he got the paper he just didnt give it to me so I didnt know to take him. Now he doesnt get to go to the other ones. I am really irritated at him for this. He got his bag and I found the note inside but he still insist that he gave it to me.
• He watched me take it out of his bag with his other mess of papers. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
• Cheating or Not Cheating? One of the boys had a paper to do. He had the rough draft that the teacher had already looked at and helped him with some but was hard to read and had alot of miss spellings. This is the only child that really struggles with spelling and writing so..... I copied the rough draft but corrected all the misspellings and had him help write the beginning and ending. He then copied it on his own sheet of paper. I see it as I corrected his rough draft before he made his final copy but for some reason I kinda felt like I might be doing something I shouldnt.

Life is a beating me to death....

• Practices are about to start and have started for one.


• My oldest wants to run track and play soccer.
  
• He didnt know they when practices were for track because he only listens to half of what is said.


• This drives me insane. Not just because he never completes anything I want him to but because it also affects his school work and sports. It also isnt very responsible and I think he need to be.


• Dentist and doctors and different doctors and then back to the dentist soon.


• The last time I made appointments for the boys to see the dentist they set the appointment for when the office was closed. I was pissed. They then couldnt see them all at the same time so I get to make 2 trips. Oh happy me.


• Thinking of talking to the doctor about depression.


• Is there a teachers union around here? . How much of students failings are the teachers responsibility and how much the parents and how much the students.


• I think this responsibility changes from parents and teachers to students gradually. I also think that as they get older and are supposed to be responsible for the work and grades and parents are not as much a part of homework and schoolwork it is a teachers responsibility to notice when grades are low and when students are receiving zeros. At that point they should contact the parents. If parents dont know there is a problem until report cards come out then it too late.


• Most of the time when I ask to see my oldest sons papers that I know he has not done so well on he doesnt have them. Either they gave it back and he threw it away or they require them to keep them in a classroom binder. One of his teachers is hard to get a hold of. That same teacher doesnt post grades until the end of the six weeks. This annoys me greatly.


• By the way I love grades being on the internet for parents to access. You can see absents , tardies, and grades (as long as they are posted). If they had that when I was a kid I would have been in trouble. :)

Life

• I saw the donut shop burn today :( I dont like the other one in town and sometimes when we were running late that place was a life saver.
• I hate the weather lately. I wish it would stay like it was today. I had all the windows open and the heat and air off. Yea for the electric bill. I didnt realize that so many people were upset about their bills. It wasnt just me or my MIL.
• There are so many clothes in this house but no ever seems to have something to wear.
• We are finally going to get to see our new niece. The last time we had this planned we didnt get to go cause the hubby was going to have to work but then didnt. I am getting excited about it again.
• This summer we are going to Disney World. My uncle and his family are going too. The kids are excited and I am excited to watch them talk about it.
• My oldest got to miss 3 days of school this week. Tue and Thur for UIL and Wed. the entire grade went to a museum. Well they got to go if they did all their work and didnt get into trouble. That was the condition because sometime ago the school was banned from that museum do to behaivor problems.
• The UIL has some great news and not so great news. He placed 2nd in the test that he took on Thurs. :) Greats little one! The not so great news.....well I kinda want to bitch about so....
• On Tues he went for one test. It is timed. It takes 10 mins. 10 mins. He gets up to go to the bathroom in the middle of it. 10 mins I say. He couldnt wait 10 mins? I could maybe understand if he was sick or something but no he just needed to pee. 10 mins! He was disqualified for it. Sigh 10 mins....
• The littlest one and I had a great convo today as I was trying to figure out why my kids mattress was falling through on one end. (a slat was missing and another moved)
  

Me: What happened to the bed? It wasnt like this yesterday.

Him: I can hold it (the mattress) up with my head.

Me: No thats ok I got it. What the heck how did this get like that?

Him: I dont know.

Me: (as I move a slat down) What happen? Did they break another one? (we have had to replace a few of them do to the kids jumping on the bed)

Him: I know where it is. (he goes and gets it)

Me: Where?

Him: Right here.

Me: How did you know that was there?

Him: Cause I'm a genius.

Did I mention that he is only 4.

Why???

• Why do I do this to myself? I am so stressed out over stuff that I can not change.
• My Valentines Day wasnt great.
• In fact non of my weekend was great or even good.
• The only good thing that happen was my little one got to go to a bday party and had a great time.
• I let my children play in the snow for a while. We went out in it twice. The next day it was melting and a muddy mess.
• Some children came and asked if my older ones could go out and play. Nope we had already been and just finished drying everyone and everything. I felt bad cause they came from a good 6 blocks but they just headed to the next kids house.
• We bundled up and we didnt stay out for more than and hour or so each time but one of my kidos has an ear ache this morning and didnt go to school. Poor thing.
• I was so ready for the kids to go to school this morning. My house has been extremely loud lately.
• I am worried however about the kids grades since the last 2 days of the sixweeks they were not at school so all the late work I made them do might not be accepted, not that I would blame the teachers.

Life...

• I have always thought my kids are pretty well behaved. Well I had a few surprises.
• First the one of my brats flipped off his teacher!!!!! I couldn't believe it. She didn't see it but the other students did. I thought I was going to beat him. I spank my children but I couldn't this time due to I didn't know if I would stop....How unbelievably disrespectful. He knows better. That boy will be working his butt off the next few weeks along with being grounded.
• Next one of the boys calls to ask (he was with his other parent) if he can be dropped off at the park to play with his friends. The answer was sure that will be fine. Out of all the kids who would be doing what he was supposed to I thought it would be him. I was going out but he said not to drive by he was calling him so I don't go next to the park just close enough so I could see. There was not one kid at the park. I was pissed and as I was going back home to see if he had talked to him I see him walking up the street. Turns out he was heading where he was supposed to end up but because he wasn't were he was supposed to be it wasn't the street I expected to see him on. Boy was he in trouble....
• The other boy is just going to be beat. He never seems to listen to what he is told. Well half of it anyway. Either its not done properly or only half done. He has a trash can in his room that was so full he had another bag of trash sitting next to it. I told him for a week to take it out but he kept forgetting. He only took it out when I yelled and screamed and threw a fit and grounded him. Then he said he put it all together so he only had to make one trip. Great it was done, I checked didn't see any more trash. The little shit had the same freaking bag sitting next to his trash can yesterday.
• All of my bigger boys have gotten lazy about doing homework and getting it in on time. I know that they are getting to the age where school work isn't as important to them and they want to hang out with their friends more now but that just doesn't work for me and the whole boys will be boys thing can fly right out the window because that isn't happening either.
• These are the biggest things I have had to deal with so far as a parent so I guess I am lucky but damn they are stressing me out and I know that more is to come.

Stuff...

• Friday we took one of the boys to see and ENT doctor for his hearing loss. I liked him. He was hard for the hubby to understand though. He was great with the little on that decided not to say one word to him. He did giggle once when the doctor acted surprised that a monkey came out of his ear when he looked in.
• His hearing loss is not from nerve damage so it can be fixed. Right now he has a lot of fluid in his ears that could be causing the problem, if not its the little ear bones.
• He may have to get tubes if the fluid doesn't clear up on its own but not yet because this is the first time the doctor has seen fluid in his ears.
• He says that he doesn't even consider it a surgery and for adults he does it in his office but they wont let him do children there.
• We are getting our taxes done this week :) Super excited about it cause we always get money back because we have so much with held.
• Anyone know a place that accepts used toys? I will be cleaning out my young ones room this weekend because there just isn't enough room for all their toys. They are still in good shape though.
• My kids are pretty good. Most everyone tell me they are well behaved and well mannered. The oldest one is pushing my limits.
• When my hubby was talking the my MIL about punishing him she told him to remember that he will be old enough to chose to live with his mother in a year. I went crazy pissed off when he told me about it.
• First I wont play the game of I am mad at you so I am going to live with my other parent game. If he leaves he will stay with her until he finishes school.
• Second there are some other issues that would have to be addressed and she would have to take us to court.
• Our kids have cores to do they are set every week and they usually have to help out with other stuff too. They are lucky and have a lot and get to do a lot. I don't think they know that and it drives me nuts.
• I feel like i am just floating through life right now.

Meet...

my new niece, Emily! She was born Jan 19th 2010. She is so beautiful.
And this is just the cutiest little pic of her and her brother! There was another one that was sweeter where he was looking at her and patting her feet but you cant beat the looks on their faces!

What to do?

My kid brought me a progress report this morning. Said he drew on it and scribbled it out. It was on the signature line and just below. It was my initials. I could still see it through the scribbles. :( He says its not. YOU CAN SEE IT!!!!!!!! Grr. I am so mad. Its stupid cause all of his grades are good. 90+ His average is 99. There is a dance tonight and his friend is supposed to come over. I dont want to tell his friend he cant come now because he wont have a chance to make other plans for the dance and his parents may have plans now that he isnt going to be home. Any ideas for a creative punishment? For trying to sign the paper and for the lie.....I dont want to go over board but I want him to know this is not acceptable.

Something happen...

at the school today. A kid was hurt at BIS at the end of the day. I am not sure what happen but the child was going to be transported by ambulance. They blocked off the front of the school and traffic was backed up everywhere. Thats 2 accidents in as many months. Major ones. I am concerned.


****edit**** This wasnt an accident. It had to do with a child with a pace maker and it stopping.

Stuff...

• The kids are stressing me out.
• Hell life in general is stressing me out.
• I forgot to send my kids homework with him last week and now I cant find it. :( He is going to have to redo the whole thing.
• We got a new TV last week. Its nice but I thought it was LCD when I bought it. Its not its plasma.
• That means it uses more electricity and easier for the kids to rune.
• Its huge. The hubby loves it.
• That also means we had to upgrade the dish because we didnt have HD. We do now! We also had them fix our bedroom satellite so we get tv in there too now. :)
• The guy who installed the new Satellite took forever and did a crappy job. He even unplugged my dvd player and used the cable instead of just using one of the HDMI cables. I didnt notice cause well I was just ready for him to get out of my house. The hubby was pissed. At the guy that did it and me for not checking. Oh well we fixed it and I called and complained.
• Our old tv was in a built in so we had a big hole with nothing in it since we hung the TV on the wall. We Fixed it this weekend. It looks nice and now we have more room for our DVD's.
• My hubbys computer is in our bedroom now since the boys have a computer. I hate it. I cant sleep when he is playing because he pounds on the damn keys. I can handle the talking and the light from the monitor but damn it the click click click just pisses me off.
• Did i mention that the kids are stressing me out? I mean really really really stressing me out.
• I am going to be an aunt again on Wednesday :) The first girl :) I am super excited.