• This weekend was interesting.....I guess.
• Didnt do too much.
• We were supposed to eat brunch with my parents on Sunday.
• We didnt get to :(
• We got all the way there and got a call about our oldest child being hurt.
• He hurt his arm again. It ended up not being broke but he is in a brace for a week or two.
• Soccer starts today. I am excited and dreadful.
• Its raining again.........
• I am really upset about not getting to eat with my parents. :/
• I think I resent my husband. More so than I realize.
• I gave up alot to be with him and it seems like I keep giving up bits and pieces of myself.
• When I moved I gave up seeing my friends and family everyday. Then it became more and more. Now I dont even talk to my friends from before my husband. My hardly ever see my family now and most of them only live a hour away.
• I no longer work because I take care of our children. It would cost more for child care than I would make a week. He has been saying he doesnt want me to go back to work even when the youngest goes to school.
• My father now lives just a few hours away and we still dont see him but on holidays.
• My sister in law lives about 5-6 hours from us and we have seen her more in the past 4 months (when she moved there) than we have seen my dad in the past 2 years.
• Its not that I dont enjoy it I just think my life needs to be about me and what I want sometimes.
• All this added together makes me a very pissed off unhappy person.
• I love my husband and I dont want a divorce but I want myself back. All of those things were a part of what made me who I am.
• I also think this all distributes to my depression.
• Wow that was more than I intended to let out....