Life is hard...

• My grandmother passed away Saturday. It was a complete shock. She was at work on Friday. She just had the gastric bypass surgery a few months ago. Just bought a new car and was working hard to improve herself.
• I have for as long as I can remember thought of my grandmother as being in her late 50's early 60's. Over the years her age never seemed to increase in my mind. She aged well. When she passed away she was just 3 months short of 73.
• At the funeral home the director told my mother and aunt and uncle that most people are the widest at the elbows but that wasnt the case for my grandmother. She is widest at her hips but she would still fit into a standard coffin, she would just be a little snug in the hips. My cousin told me this and she and I rolled laughing. In my family we lovingly call this the "Spiker Ass" and we all have it.
• I already regret not spending more time with her. I have that same regret with my grandfather on the other side. I am too young to have regrets in my life. I am going to work to make sure I dont have any more.
• A few weeks ago my step sisters husband attacked her. She tried to get away from him but when he broke through the door (the second one) and she had no where else to go she shot and killed him.
• CPS took her children and she went to jail. Things are a bit better now. Her children are with her husbands parents and she is out of jail on bond. She is also staying with her in laws.
• She and her children are doing ok. Evidently that was not the first time that he attacked her but the first that I had heard about it.
• I am still not sure of all the details. At the end of the month I should know more. I am stressed, worried, frustrated, confused, and sad all at the same time.
• My kids are bickering and fighting almost all the time (it had gotten better the past week or so).
• My children just got new cell phones. They had the go phones, now they are on a plan. I am not happy about it but its a battle I fought and lost.
• My littlest one starts school this year and I already started crying about it.
• School supplies list are ridiculous. I have 5 boys and not only am I buy their supplies. I have to buy the teachers supplies too. Dry erase markers and erasers, tape for tape dispensers, full package of red, black and blue pens(my 7th grader wasnt allowed to use pens). Really? Why isnt the school supplying that stuff?
• My hubby continues to hound me about going back to Disney for Christmas. It was next Christmas now its this one. Disney is expensive. Our family is not small and we cant stay in the smaller hotels unless we get 2 rooms and doing that cost the same as the bigger nicer hotels. I want to go back but not till the little ones are big enough to do everything and want to ride the bigger rides.
• I think it is the stress but my back and sides are killing me.
• On the bright side of things. I have lost 8.5 lbs in the last week.
• Sigh.. It has to get better.