Yep I actually uploaded my pics...

Fun on the beach! They played in the waves all day. Man were they cold too!
Yep Men can cook to. Who knew?

Texas Sea Center

There were lots of big ships coming and going. Fun to watch.

Beautiful! The only sun rise I saw the whole time. (Man that felt good!)

Vacation...

• was a good time with good people.
• We went to the coast. 3 families and 2 singles rented a beach house.
• I know it sounds like alot of people for one house but there was plenty of rooms.
• We were right on the beach (sorta, there was a grassy lot and a road between the house and the beach, but no one used the road because the only house on it was empty last week and the grassy lot made a great play area for the kids).
• The beach was really nice for most of the week. The last 2 days not so much. I guess the tide changed? (the waves changed directions) It caused a bunch of brown stuff and jellyfish to wash up on the beach. Yuck.
• It was really too cold to be swimming but the kids did anyway. They had a blast.
• The older boys came and went as the pleased for the most part. Only had to let someone know they were leaving.
• The best part is that because we were with other families with children ours had plenty of people to hang out with and didn't really fight the whole time we were there :)
• I don't think we have ever eaten so much grilled food though. Chicken, steaks, fajitas, shish kabobs, hamburgers. The veggies were great. Nothing from a can, and nothing frozen. It was awesome and I learned a few new things for dinner :)
• The kids at so many corn dogs I lost count.
• We went to the Texas Sea Center and a little museum that I thought would be crappy. It was actually really kinda neat a much bigger than I thought.
• We tried to go crab fishing without much luck but the kids had fun and managed to throw both nets completely into the water.
• While there we ran into a rotten little boy that even the girls wanted to slap his little mouth.
• We also went bowling. Now that was fun. All the little ones on one lane with bumpers, the big kids on one and the adults on one.
• I thought that would make things easier and the adults game would move a little faster than the kids. Nope the kids smoked us.
• I did break 100 on both games so I was proud of myself :) (yeah I know its still low but hey I am lucky to break 60)
• The rest of the time was spent at the beach or for the boys fishing (oh yeah throw in some catch and football too, oh and golf for the men). Well except the evenings which included lots of laughter, too much alcohol, good friends, and cards.
• We didn't plan a whole lot but I think that's what made it so much fun.

I will get my pictures on the computer and share a few sometime this week when I catch up and laundry and all the kids stuff.

Its been a while..

As you know things have been weighing heavy on my heart. I decided that I would push them all aside and deal with them when we returned from vacation since we would be spending the week with two other families and a few single friends. To keep that much hurt, anger, jealousy (as some would say), wonder, and worry inside for so long is really hard to do. Its harder to let it all go and have a good time, and yet even more so to bring yourself back to reality and actually deal with it all. At one point I did give in and spill my guts to what used to be just a family friend. She is now more to me than that. That also led to a conversation between our hubbies while they played golf today. I had shared more than he had. I felt better after talking with her. She had words of wisdom and encouragement. I will let ya now next week how it all turns out (well unless it goes bad, then I might be here spilling my heart).

Is that light at the end of the tunnel...

• or is it just another train wreck headed my way?
• I am happy the women in my life (and a man or two) understand where my feeling are coming from because my husband sure as hell doesn't.
• I thought it would make it better to vent and get it all out but man is doesn't.
• He is trying though....well I think he is anyway...he may have just stopped telling me about it.
• We have talked, alot. I am not sure he even feels like we have a problem or if its just in my head that there is one. My heart aches at the thoughts and worries I have so I know there is a problem. More talking and dealing to come but I can only handle so much at once. So I am grateful for your thoughts and prayers and good wishes.
• The kids, well last week was a long one. One of them wanted to move out, stole his brothers money but didn't really..he really just sold his ipod, said some stuff he shouldn't have at school and then to end the week he thought it was a good idea to burn paper in his bed room. Yep that was the good kid!
• I have no idea what got into him last week.
• The one kid I always feel like I am getting on to didn't even make the radar last week.
• One is still grounded for his report card and will remain in his room until he brings home a good progress report.
• The little one doesn't think he needs dinner unless its hamburgers or we order out. Grrrr.... This battle stinks. I hate giving everyone but him dessert. He hold a grudge like no other. I almost think he is female.
• The other one well he is bossy as all get out and threatens others if he doesn't get his way. Yea that doesn't go over so well with me.
• The newest one (since some wonderful friends taught him what the middle finger means) "If you don't I am going to flip you off."
• I don't spank my kids often but man they are really pushing the buttons...
• I was dreading baseball starting but two boys had their first practice and it was great. I was excited to see some friendly faces from football. (we were all in agreement that we were still ready for football to start back up)
• The fun is already beginning though. Those two and the littlest one have practice at the same time Thursday in two different places...ones not even in town :( Since I am avoiding my MIL like the plague I don't know how I am going to pull that one off.
• The other coach I haven't heard from yet but he has talked to his friends at school to know who's team he will be with. Now just waiting on practices.
• I have been cleaning like a crazy woman too. I mean windows, closets, drawers, everything. That's a long story in its self, but that's part of last week to. I do admit it was good for the soul and thinking time.

Well....

I need to be found and dropped at the nearest crazy house. I can handle this any more.....

Life...

• ...has gotten hard to say the least.
• The hubby has a friend that I don't really like being such a close friend.
• Its a new thing because she is having relationship problems. Now I don't mind them being friends but she is needy and calls him for everything. He is the type of guy that tries to help everyone, wants everyone to be happy. Well that's fine and all but a woman losing her man and needy...well lets just say I see problems coming. Not really from him but from her. He doesn't see it the same way I do.
• I have more on that subject but it just makes me sick to even think of it so maybe another time...
• That's not the only issue going on in my house. The two things going on together well I just cant handle it. I have cried for 2 days straight now. Its still not out because I still don't feel anything has been resolved and know there is more to come.
• On top of that I am getting sick :(
• Hello stress and worry. If anything else heads my way they are going to have to check me into the loony bin.

Life and stuff...

So this is just going to be more bitching about the pervious post so you can skip it if you want :) I just need to vent.

• I love how I didn't say a word to my MIL about what is going on. I didn't even say anything to my hubby about it until he came home in a bad mood and pissed and asked me what I thought but this is still all my fault and I am the bitch.
• While watching my kids play basketball we always sit together. Well when she came in she kinda sat with me but two rows up and about four seats down. I would have preferred her just not come near me if that's what she wanted to do.
• I love getting dirty looks and glares from other members of his family. Really I do.
• I told my husband this is going to go on forever because I am not just going to get over it. He doesn't see it that way. He says she will be mad at his sister in a week and forget all about him. That totally drives me crazy.
• Sucky part about it is that I still have to ask for her help every so often because sometimes I need her to pick up the boys and keep them for about 15-20 mins after school.

I just cant get over now...

I wasnt pissed at first but then I got in a funk and now I just cant get over it.

My MIL who is always complaining that I am harder on one than the others and who is always on my hubby that I play favorites is the worlds worst. I have 5 boys, 2 his 1 mine and 2 ours. His 2 are welcome any time they ask or any time his ex ask her to keep them. She never and I mean never tells them no. The little 2 ask to go over there and the answer is not today maybe tomorrow or next weekend. She does always get them few a few hours when she tells them that. We used to ask her to baby sit the boys every so often (not much because well we have 5 boys) but mostly we try to make it where we only need a babysitter for 2 so its not so much work. Of course she lets the other 2 come from their mothers as well so she usually has 4. Well this weekend happens to be one of those weekends but one of the boys is staying home but his dad has to work this weekend. Well its a problem for her to keep him too because she is keeping one of the boys cousins and well you know the other 2 are coming because he is going to be there. Its fine for all of them to be there but adding one more is a major problem. If thats not favorites I dont know what is...She has always been that way and I noticed it along time ago but when the hubby came home asking about why one was staying home and if he had asked and we werent going to have a baby sitter any more I knew something was up. I wasnt pissed at first but the hubby was in a bad mood because of it and the more I thought about it the more it pisses me off.

I had reason...

So I was nervous for a reason. The door get taken out and the hole in the wall cut to size and....the door fit but has 3 big dents in the door :( Off to Denton to get another one....well not me the guy installing the door because well I dont think the door would look very good on top of my mini van :/

life....

• Trying to keep myself busy right now. We are having a new door installed. The man has to cut out part of the wall.....Can you say nervous?
• I also have this thing about giving advice about how something should be done. Man that really pisses my hubby off. I dont think it would make this guy happy either :)
• Sports are coming to an end. This weekend is the last basketball game. I am excited and disappointed at the same time. The oldest one was going to run track but then all of a sudden he isnt any more. :)
• I am not sure about baseball. My kids arent really great at it but love it and I love to watch baseball.
• My husband has gone sports crazy. It started with football, then baseball (when they were winning he all of a sudden took interest and now loves it), then golf. He is even talking about getting the sports package for the tv...I dont think I could handle it.
• We looked into half season tickets for the rangers. I was super excited but I am not sure we will be getting them. Kind of expensive for as many as we would need.
• We have made some good friends lately. Not really new friends just hanging out more. I love it.
• Valentines Day was nice...The hubby was almost sweet :) Sunday he came in from the store with flowers and a teddy bear....as he handed them to me he said "Here before I forget tomorrow is Valentines."...almost sweet.
• My youngest one has already figured out how to play hookie. I am going to have to watch that one.

Because I love it and it fits right now...

Cold...

• Wow... we have had a lot of ice and snow lately.
• After being shut in with the everyone last week I was really hoping not to get any more ice this week.
• Dont get me wrong last week was fun but I was ready for my peace and quiet.
• I say shut in but we left at least once every day.
• All last week we spent with some friends. Us there or them here. It was nice. Had dinner and played cards.
• Doing the same tonight I think.
• We had a ton of people over for the super bowl. The people we have been spending all our time with havent really seen me pissy. Well I was for a bit on Sunday.
• It was everyone in the house and in my kitchen and me trying to get stuff ready. I just couldnt take it any more. When the kids started wrestling I kinda lost it. My poor kids.
• One of the boys has 0's in one of his classes. I found them last Monday and he was grounded. Last week he got to not be grounded because well there wasnt anything he could do but he still has them so this week he stays grounded. The next few days will be hell for him and me :( He is the one that doesnt take the grounding you have to enforce it. It seems that I have to tell him to go back to his room every 10 mins.
• Frustrated to say the least.
• The hubby and one of the kids ordered some stuff online. They have been waiting on it to get here since last week. Its driving them crazy and kinda makes me smile inside because I said they should wait. :)
• I hate that its so cold out....
• I know I just cut this off but I have to go....

Life is good :)

• I had lunch with one of my favorite bloggers who isnt blogging any more and my cousin.
• It was great. I am sure they were wondering when we were going to leave. We started before lunch rush and stayed almost till the end...maybe it was the end :)
• It was so much fun! I cant wait to do it again.
• This morning one of my little ones woke up with a stomach ach. Poor thing. His felt better and then all of a sudden he had fever. He is good now, sleeping peacefully on the couch...I am sure he isnt going to school in the morning.
• I was supposed to sub too :( I was looking forward to it. I may still. He is plenty old enough to stay at home by himself. That may be a fight with the hubby though and well its just wouldnt be worth it.
• My washer is leaking water :( It has been for almost a week now. I have asked th hubby to look at it but he still hasnt.
• I have done what I can with it but I dont know much about that kind of stuff. I have checked the hoses and they seem to be fine and I know the general area it is leaking from but thats about all I can do :(
• I am debating on whether a repairman and repairs will be worth it or if its just time for a new one.
• I am up way past my bedtime. I cant sleep! Doing laundry. Yuck. The whole not being able to sleep may be my own doing. I had a 3 hour nap in the middle of the day :)
• My January goal of making my bed every day has had some success but not as much as I wanted. The bed gets made almost everyday but most days not until late afternoon.
• I know what February's goal will be. I am going to try to get rid of my ponytail...well for most days...

:(

I have removed most of my links on the side. Not because I dont love them but because they are either private or no longer there.

Blah...

• I have been finding harder to get myself to post anything lately.
• My sister went to trial last week. Things went really well. Reading the comments on the news though is never a good idea. Some broke my heart and others just really piss me off.
• We have some friends that just got married not even a month ago. They are having problems already. Big ones. I can deal with it but last night it affected my kids. I have had enough.
• I hate McDonald's toys. I hate putting teeny weeny little stickers on. I hate looking for an hour because they have shot part of it and cant find it but they just have to have it. The kids love them so I guess I will have to deal with it.
• Supper excited about lunch Wednesday. :)
• My kiddo started the dishwasher for me the other day. He closed my phone charger in it. It doesnt work any more :( I have been using his phone.
• Is 10 to early to start drinking? I mean its after noon somewhere right?
• I love that my kids let me sleep late now :) They can make their own bowl of cereal and finally understand they can turn on the TV without me but I truly miss pulling one in bed with me when he comes in too early :A(

Life and Stuff :)

• Ok so basketball hasnt been the best season. The oldest one still hasnt won a game yet :( The other ones well they have won the last two :) One doesnt even want to play because "he never gets to play." I do have to agree though. Their coach while good with plays, 3 players always stay in only leaving 2 spots to switch others in and out.
• Went to a bday party at chuck e cheese this weekend. It was surprisingly fun :) The little ones at just big enough to start doing some of it on their own and I got to play the ones that give lots of tickets so they would get to pick prizes to!
• I tried to make oatmeal...I added to much water....yuck!
• I am so excited. All my tv shows are starting back up :) We record them and watch them without commercials. So much better that way and we watch them on our own time. I love the DVR.
• I am thinking about asking a few bloggers that I cant read their blogs any more if they want to get together for lunch one day next week.
• My youngest child no longer wants to go to school. He is fine when he gets there but getting him in bed so he will be up in the morning is almost impossible. And dont even mention school in the morning or he isnt putting anything on.
• I need some ideas for helping him enjoy homework and school work. If you have any send them my way.
• We have been hanging out with some friends lately. Its gotten to the point when they dont show up I am asking where they are and why they didnt come over.
• I have been working a little more too :) Its good for me.
• I have a random question too. What does everyone do with their tax return? Is it big or small? We spend it on bills usually. I know some that put with hold the minimum (and owe) and some that withhold the max (for a big return)

Girls Night!

• We had a girls night! Oh my goodness was it fun!
• We went to a place call A Piece of Work. They teach you how to paint. Check out their calendar. I cant wait to go back :)
• Yep I painted that :) It was easier than I thought but still kinda hard for me. As you can see its cute but not great.
• A group of 11 of us went. We drank, snacked, painted, and laughed our butts off.
• My cousins painting is great. Her lips are all messed up and one of her eyes are huge. I mean huge. And she painted the what was supposed to be on the inside of the eye outside :) When she showed us we laughed so hard the rest of the class came to see what we were laughing at. She is a good sport and shared.
• If you want to see more pics they took some and they are here. The one we did was called Mimi.
• It is definitely something I want to go back and do again.
• One of the best things about this place is they are willing to help if you need it and they allow for you to change the picture any way you wish. One guy didnt even do that painting he did his own thing.
• We have decided we are going to have a girls night at least once a month. It was well worth it.
• Did forget to say I had a blast?
  

:(

I am sad to see what I consider a blogging friend go. I do understand her leaving though. This has affected her children and husband and that is just not acceptable. I do hope that things get better. The person doing all this should take a look at their own self. Arent you the gossip now? Should someone attack you? I find myself hoping that someone will on one hand and not on the other. Showing the world that one person is a gossip is no excuse for an attack on an entire family. It is a shame someone has twisted words into something they are not. I hope that you have achieved what you were after. I hope that you are now satisfied and can stop your hatred.

Man....

Everyone is going to invited readers only. I cant see some of my favorite blogs any more : ( Why does it make me sign in everytime I got to the web page? Even if I am already signed into blogger/google.

Hehe...

I just realized my back ground says Happy Thanksgiving....I think its time for me to look for a new one :)

I have had a lot on my mind lately just not the urge to post anything :/

• We had a great holiday. Christmas seemed to go on forever. That could be because we go so many places. This year it started and ended in the same place (Grandma's house) but it was nice. I got to see my family and spend lots of time with my children and hubby.
• They are all back to school and work now. I enjoy my peace and quiet for about an hour or so in the mornings before I start missing them.
• New years was fun. Not much drinking on my part or the hubby either. Thats new for me :) First time in about 5 years he has been awake when the ball drops. Had the kids too. We spent the evening with my SIL and family at the hubby's aunts. Played poker and LRC (or RCL). We came out a dollar ahead. My only complaint was the hubby thought it was more important to send a text than to kiss me :/ Boy did he get.
• I cant believe 2010 has come and gone already. I am make a resolutions list this year. I have never bothered before because it always seems so unrealistic to make a list of things you want to change just because its a new year. I am going for simple :) The first one is to make my bed everyday (I got out of the habit and now hardly ever do). I started this one the week before the new year though and it seems to be going good. They say if you do something 21 time in a row it becomes a habit..( I hope they are right). When I get through this one I will let you know about the next. They will all be habit forming things that will improve my life in some small way. Going to try for one a month.
• My car (well minivan) will be paid for by the end of April. (hopefully sooner) My hubby wants to get a new one right away. Me not so much. I would rather not have a car payment for a year or so. I might have him talked into it. It sure would be nice not to have to worry about it and also give us a bigger down payment.
• He wants a suburban. Eeeek. I can barely drive the minivan I dont want something that big.
• My youngest bought himself a pillow pet with some of his Christmas money. I had to make myself let him get one because I thought for sure that would be a waste of money. Man does he love that thing. He even gave him a name and wants to take him everywhere.
• The kids got enough Nerf guns to have a war. I keep finding darts everywhere. There were about 10 in the tree when I took it down. The kids were glad to have them back.

Ok I am rambling now so off I go. I will try to write some of the crap that keeps racing through my head down before I forget it all again. Wishing you all a wonderful, peaceful, and joyous Year!